So I have not been posting much here. No one has noticed so the joke is on me. But anyway I have come to realize my own mortality and at 43 I think that I am about to start some kind of mid life crisis, acutally I think the process has already begun.
I always told my wifethat when I had my midlife crisis I would need to make sure that I had money for a Porsche and a hooker but now that the time has actually come the future has been a little darker. I have realized that after life or not (still kind of on the fence with that one) that I need to persue things that will make a difference. I have been working on a year long project that ends in a week and realized that this has no way of changing the world as we know it, heck it may not even change the end users life at work all that much so I am thinking that I have to radically change direction is the second half of my life is going to be any better than the first.
I have a lot ot be thankful for, a wife kids, a roof over my head. But really how musch effect other than ego is all this stuff? If I can create values that carry forward than it would be great and the kids would be a good vehicle for that but still I am not sure how this effects things much at all either unless I have somehow accidently bred world changers.
So I am going to spend the next few weeks on this blog more trying to find that change. If anyone reads this you can help too.
I will reflect on the past, look forward to the future and post what I am doing presently to make a difference.
Oh, and that will be boring enough for this blog to live up to it’s name. I will try to inject funny in the heaviness as well.
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